.. Mostly due to the fact that my food problem got in the way again. Trying to lose weight with compulsive over eating disorder is proving to be quite challenging..
The diet pills kill my appetite for the most part.. and that’s great.. but they also give me panic attacks and make me grind my jaw uncontrollably. I’ve decided I’m going to abstain from taking them until I get rid of most of the major stressors in my life, then go back to taking them. They’re great if I don’t have any stress in my life.. but not so great if I have a lot going on.. like breakups.. and failing school.. and possibly being bipolar. All 3 of those things happened / are happening right now.. and taking the pills just amplifies the depression and anxiety.. so it’s not good for me right now. I need to try and be zen for a while.
In the meantime.. I’m going to have to figure out how to stop eating this garbage I’ve been eating..
I was doing so good for so long.. but then I failed school and got dumped at the same time.. and I turned to food for comfort. It’s the only thing that made me feel better. It’s the only comfort I have in my life right now.. so things are just really hard.
I haven’t given up on losing weight. I’ve just hit a point in my weight loss journey where my mental health has become more important. I need to do what makes me happy right now. Not that anything really makes me happy.. but.. you know what I’m saying.
I have nothing in my life that gives me joy anymore.. so I can’t deprive myself of the one thing that makes things feel even just a little bit better.
That’s not to say I’m eating like 5,000 calories a day. I’m somewhat staying within the caloric amount I’d need to stay in to maintain my weight..
It’s just that I’m not eating the healthiest foods right now. But I think I’m at peace with that, and I don’t hate my body too much at the moment.

Thanks to those of you who are still following me.

Starting weight: 242 lbs
Current weight: 231.5 lbs

Not long til I hit my first goal weight.. and 66.5 lbs to go til I reach my ultimate goal weight.

I’m not actually sure how the weight keeps coming off of me though.. I haven’t been eating very healthy this past week, and I haven’t really been exercising at all..
But every time I weigh myself, the number is less and less. It’s so weird..

THIS GUY!
Current weight is now 234 =D
Starting weight was 242.
Total weight loss so far of 8 lbs.

I’m not even really working out at the moment.. lol

Replace donuts, pastries, and baked goods with sweet succulent fruits!
I’ve been doing this for almost two weeks now, and my cravings for baked goods are starting to go away!
Fruit can be just as delicious, and it’s SO much healthier for you!
I’ve lost 6 lbs in 2 weeks, mostly because I replaced all those sweets with fruits!

I shouldn’t be weighing myself everyday though.. that’s baaad =P

ilikelikingyouu asked: Way to go! There's this picture I have saved that has a list of weird, common that tells you how much they weight, sort of like a reference list. 4 lbs is an ostrich egg! :)

Nice! I lost an ostrich egg! =D
That makes me feel even better!

My starting weight was 242.
When I weighed myself this morning just out of curiosity, the scale said 238. That was with clothes on, and *before* I went to the bathroom.. so I could possibly weigh a pound or so less than that, even.
So yeah, it would appear that since Thursday, I have lost 4 lbs. =)

I realized today that I never posted any goals on here, so I’m going to do that now.

Goal weight #1 - 227 lbs
Goal weight #2 - 212 lbs
Goal weight #3 - 197 lbs
Goal weight #4 - 182 lbs
Goal weight #5 (ultimate goal weight) - 165 lbs

I hope to get to at least under 200 lbs, if not 190 lbs, by June 20th. My 10 year highschool reunion is on June 23rd.. so I want to be lookin good for that ;)

I’m attempting to exercise twice a day, and I’m not starving myself.. I’m doing my best to avoid junk food and increase my intake of “healthier” foods, but I’m not really hardcore dieting. I’m just trying to eat a lot of lean proteins, include vegetables and fruit (these are things I never used to eat), eat more often, drink more water, and replace bad snacks with better ones. I’m allowing myself a cheat meal once a week, and I’m not cutting out granola bars. That’s the one little luxury item I’m allowing myself to have. My dietician said as long as I have ones that contain at least 4 grams of protein, 15 - 20 grams of carbohydrates, and less than 5 grams of fat, it’s okay to have a granola bar.
They are better than nutrigrain, she says, which is mostly sugar. (Sugar is more likely to turn into fat than protein is, she says.)
Anyway, this is what I’ve been doing for the past 4 days, and so far, I’ve lost at least 4 pounds, so it seems to be working.

My main goal for the next couple of weeks is to avoid fast food and baked goods until I no longer crave them as badly.
I remember back in the day when I was losing weight (yes, I’ve done this before.. but it’s been so long, I forgot how I did it..), after I’d avoided fast food and junk for a few weeks, I no longer liked it anymore.. so I’m trying to get to that point again. I’m trying to train myself to feel nauseous when I smell mcdonalds or fried chicken.. lol
It would be great and very helpful if I found that stuff repulsive again!

One last thing, I have been taking a natural weight loss supplement (or “diet pill”, as they’re sometimes called.. but that term has been kind of given a bad rap, so I try to avoid calling it that..), but it’s not really doing much. It contains synephrine (bitter orange extract), which, in the right complex, can actually be really helpful. It increases energy, gently suppresses appetite, etc.. but this particular product doesn’t have the right combination of things in it for it to be that effective. When I lost weight before, I used Metaslim, another natural weight loss supplement that contained synephrine as well (but different dosage, and with a different combination of ingredients) and it worked amazingly well. That’s what helped me lose weight in the past (in addition to healthier eating and exercise, of course.. which it helped motivate me to do).. BUT, the damn stuff was discontinued 2 years ago.. so I was forced to find another product with similar ingredients. I found this stuff I’m currently using, “Xtreme Lean: Burn”, but like I said, it’s not nearly as effective. I find that it increases my energy and motivates me to get up and do stuff, but it doesn’t suppress my appetite at all, really.
So I did a lot of research to see if I could find anything else that works and is also safe, has few side effects, etc..
and I found this one called Phen375, which isn’t actually comprised of natural ingredients.. it is actually pharmaceutical grade, but contains the right kind of ingredients, has virtually no bad side effects, and is the most highly reviewed “diet pill” out there right now.
I did a lot of research on it first, to make sure the claims weren’t bogus, etc.. and couldn’t find many negative reviews at all. Almost everyone who has tried it has had amazing results, especially when combining it with “diet” and exercise..
so I decided I want to try it.
The downside to this product though, is that it’s incredibly expensive. But from what I’ve read, it’s worth the price.. so we will see.
Thanks to an amazing friend, I’m going to be able to try it soon. When I do, I will let you all know how it works out.
I know that diet pills are a bit of a controversial subject, and many people, even some of you in the Tumblr weight loss community, may not believe in them.. but I personally think that they can help in some cases, to suppress appetite and increase energy. Especially in my case.
I don’t think they should be used on their own, however. They can assist a person in achieving their goals, but they shouldn’t be the only thing a person does to attempt to achieve those goals. If you get what I’m saying =)
Also, I’m well aware that “diet pills” can be dangerous, and to be careful with them. That’s why I do so much research before trying one. I’ve also been using them on and off for about 8 years, so I’m no stranger to them. Basically what I’m saying is don’t worry, I know what I’m doing. =)

Anyway, sorry for rambling.. just thought I’d give you all a positive update =)

My muscles are hurtin pretty bad after Thursday’s workout.
I did a lot of weight lifting and circuit training. I didn’t even lift anything that heavy.. I started out very light. So I didn’t overdo anything.. my body just isn’t used to it.. so it’s really sore.

I’m taking a break from working out until monday, so I don’t do any serious damage.
I’m still eating fairly well though. I got some fruit, and I’ve been snacking on that instead of donuts and pastries for a change.

I worked out for two hours.
There was this really fit guy there who actually happens to work in my apartment building, so I already knew him.. and he was helping me a little bit.

I’m going to be hurtin pretty bad tomorrow.. but oh well. I had fun.

I’m going to TRY to stick with it.
Working out as hard as I did today won’t be possible every day though.